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Nov '99
November 1999
It's been 23 months since my accident. I've come a long way since that morning of the 24th of December 1997! But, I'm still not back to work......let alone work of any kind! I'm still not able to do simple tasks as easily as I had before. I still get lost driving in town unless I go a specific routing, and I'm always bumping into things, and staggering as if I'm drunk! (might be more fun if I was)! I still live with constant headaches daily of a scale of 5 to 8....and escalating to a 9 and 10 quite frequently! (In fact, too frequently)!
I have sleep patterns that make you numb trying to keep up with me, and I have a roaring in my ears so bad at times that I have to turn up the music or tv just to drown it out. But I can hear the 'PIN DROP' before Sprint drops it on the other end of the phone line! Now THAT'S some sort of RADAR! (maybe I can work for the government)?!
I may go for days without eating just because I don't have an appetite, or someone has called or I get side swiped on something else and 'forget' to eat! Yep, you've got it! When was the last time YOU forgot to eat for days?! (heh, it makes for one cheap month on the grocery bill)! Talk about playing a BLONDE? Well, you really don't want me to go there, do you?! OH........alright! I've got an attention span of about a 3 year old.......and when you're 43, that's just a little hard to absorb! I lose total track of time, and forget what I was trying to write down (so I wouldn't forget) even AS I'm writing it down!
Now this can make life really interesting at times, as I've learned that SOMEWHERE there is a 'list' with what I was supposed to be doing that day! And that would work out fine, but most of the time, I forget where the list is, or even that I'm supposed to at least LOOK at it!
And all along the doctor has said that I'm just 'stressed' out?! Come on.......give me a break! There's NEVER been any blonde's in my family before! Where did THIS one come from?! And just WHO does this guy think he is anyway?! He doesn't know me from Adam, and he's telling me that I'm stressed out just because some neuro psyche test says I have an above average IQ? Boy, what ever happened to MEDICINE?! I'd like to put HIM on this ROLLERCOASTER and let somebody change the curves on HIM every time he looks the other way! YEP! He'd last about 8 seconds! (I used to know a guy like that)! oops!
So, you see......life has been quite interesting inside this 'trucker's' body since December 1997! There is never a dull moment! EVER! And just when you think that you've figured it out? Somebody changes the rules! WOW! I thought DISPATCH was a pain in the #@^! (don't even think it)! At least THEY get paid to be a pain!
All in all, life stinks but I'm trying to cover the smell with roses! Just haven't found any that work quite good enough yet! Got any cologne?! (Yes, I'm grinning)!
So, I miss my truck, my paycheck, and my LIFE that was robbed almost 2 years ago, and so far all they can do is look at me and say, "Gee, you LOOK fine.......you must BE fine!" Wished they were on THIS side of the fence! hehe! Funny Farm.........HERE I COME!! (NOT)!
When you're out there driving down the road, think of me and then smile, 'cuz I've got plenty of years to remember........I just may have misplaced some of them! So make a few more for me, OK?!
toodles..............for now anyway!
~ bright eyes ~